Throughout an look on Alex Cooper’s Call Her Daddy podcast, the truth TV star first addressed Sandoval’s claims on the finale that he tried to interrupt up with Madix a number of occasions amid his affair, however she “threatened to f—ing kill herself.”

“However you are, like, sleeping in my mattress and shopping for me flowers, occurring an anniversary dinner, going to {couples} remedy and all of that?” stated Madix, who admitted that whereas that they had what she known as a “breakup dialog” after Valentine’s Day, it wasn’t a chat that ended with any finite resolution. She additionally clarified what Sandoval apparently interpreted as suicidal ideation.

“Then, on the finish of that dialog — that was hours lengthy — the top of that dialog was like, alright, let’s proceed this dialog — and he was saying issues in that dialog, like, ‘I feel I am having a mid-life disaster’ and I am like, ‘Completely,'” she stated. “And I stated, ‘If we break up, I am most likely going to give up the present. I’ll most likely depart Los Angeles. I’ll most likely deactivate my Instagram.’ And he discovered that to be very offensive.”

“I used to be by no means saying that I used to be going to kill myself. I used to be saying that my life, this life, might be over for me as a result of I’ll go do one thing else,” she continued. “I’ve been fantasizing about shifting to love the French countryside since I used to be a f—ing baby and, like, truthfully, to be truthful, I used to be fairly tearful, it was positively not, like, a optimistic dialog, however I am not speaking about bodily harming myself.”

Madix claimed that Sandoval was fairly clear “that is not what I used to be saying,” earlier than once more denying the pair have been damaged up when the scandal broke.

“It was actually a tough dialog, it ended with, let’s hold speaking about this. The subsequent couple of days, we had extra conversations,” she added, saying she did ultimately inform Sandoval that if he believed issues have been “over” between them, he needed to be the “one to finish it” as a result of she was nonetheless “dedicated.”

“I’ve handled suicidal ideation earlier than, and I’ve been in very, very deep, darkish locations earlier than. So to then be flippant about it, as if that is additionally one thing about me that makes me should be handled poorly is fairly terrible, I feel,” added Madix, who stated his feedback whereas talking with Scheana did make her “offended.” She additionally applauded Shay for the way she reacted to his declare, questioning why he did “completely nothing to assist in any respect” if he felt she was suicidal.

When requested later by Cooper to pinpoint the “most hurtful” factor Sandoval stated amid the break up drama, she responded, “I feel it was the way in which that he weaponized any wrestle I ever had with my psychological well being. That to me was essentially the most hurtful.”

In the course of the podcast, Madix additionally reacted to seeing Tom’s first scene with Raquel after the information broke, the primary time followers noticed any blatant PDA between the 2 after their affair got here to mild. In the course of the awkward second, they each expressed their love for each other, fairly clumsily.

“That scene was very cringe on so many ranges. And I feel it was that scene and that dialog that I watched that made me — whenever you requested me, ‘Do they make sense to you?’ — I am like, no,” stated Madix. As for the “I really like you” professions, she stated she “form of knew that earlier than watching,” and figured that is “the place they have been at” with one another on the time.

Madix additionally stated that after filming that scene, Tom got here again to their shared house and “yelled at all people” she had over for what was “basically a funeral” mourning the Sandoval all of them thought they knew. “After which ultimately he left and there have been paparazzi pictures of him going again to her condominium after. So he got here again to the home, yelled at all people to, like, get out of his home and blah-blah-blah,” she added.

Ariana additionally addressed the reunion, which begins airing tonight on Bravo. She stated it was “painful” listening to Leviss throughout taping.

“And never painful within the sense of like she harm my emotions. Painful within the sense that I actually didn’t really feel like she was related to the second or actuality in any respect,” she stated, including that she believes each Tom and Raquel did not perceive the “gravity of what that they had accomplished or have been doing.” Madix added that she was “offended” and “unhappy” all through the taping, but in addition “felt numb in a method” on the similar time.

As for whether or not the reunion provided her any closure, Madix stated she “truthfully felt like” she had that earlier than going into that taping. She stated the circumstances of the break up and scandal made it “very easy for me to simply not give a s—” about Sandoval after — and made her understand that even when she did miss him, the model of Tom she was lacking is not who he truly is.

The “Vanderpump Guidelines” reunion kicks off tonight on Bravo.